Damn I had to put the I’s directly beside the following letter in order to fit in ONE letter
Again this is hard to grasp the meaning so don't mind me as I go off into detail....

Okay, I actually attempted to tame this piece O_o

I'll explain it stanza by stanza so is that you can read over whichever one you are unsure of rather them all if you like

Stanza one: by the first line 'unable to breathe and remember' that basically means it is impossible to live life with my thoughts because for me they are hell and yes depression-filled. I awake alone, I believe I'm alone, and I claim that nothing you can do will make me happy even if you tried to.

Stanza two: Again I awake alone and I waste the day trying not to think because it hurts too much so I create a fake world (daydreams) and hope that I’ll be safe for a little while longer. But I can't help feel nothingness to this life yet I try 'I stand to fall'

Stanza three: again losing my will to life (I know I repeat everything but its for emphasis) and also they can be references to my 'eating disorder' and depression (well duh) and smaller things if you continue to analyse it and break it down. That again it's impossible to mend me and then I give two metaphors for an example. But I also mean them literally because I too have a broken heart.

Stanza four: this is talking about my hate for myself me as a person and as how I look, people hate me therefore I hate me. It just hurts so much to look in the mirror or at a picture and say that’s me, because of what you look like but also because were you are who and what you are without, if that makes any sense to you.

Stanza five: This is a continue on from the fourth stanza yet this time I desperately try to be something beautiful I’m stubborn and I lie to myself 'I am a beautiful dancer' and then I think hold on you're not beautiful and then it's like not even inside, you used to be a nice person, and now you're pathetic.

Stanza six: This is a strange stanza, I thought it was nice though usually when I feel most full of many urging emotions I come out with w e i r d stuff so bare with me hum basically the sky betrayed me it's attack me with its rain and that rain killed an innocent bird, but this rain is blood from the sky it's hurt but it selfishly hurt a bird in the process, yet what did I do to help anything? I just let everything bleed. And also the world is strange and in a way all we do is lie and hurt each other yes including I. Although this seems strange it does convey how I feel to me quite well and I'm not normal so it's not going to be normal you just have to grasp what I’m trying to say and from there onwards I hope I did a good job.

Stanza seven: Well basically a conclusion I don't want to live I wake to sleep which, means I get up and it's like come on day end already also when you are asleep it is like you're dead, so to sleep forever...yeah...? But I continue to live, and at the end it's like I want to be recognised but I feel as if I’m not worthy but maybe I am, it's a fear of being forgotten but I don’t have to die to be forgotten I am, but why do I fear it if I don't want to be here, because I want to want to be here, sometimes.